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Jun. 1st, 2006 | 09:32 am

9:34 AM: Eight Hours and Counting
 to get this damn essay done.

Three Pages. Almost Four. A paragraph shy of four.


10:19 AM: Seven Hours, Ten Minutes and Counting

No progress.

10:53 AM: Six Hours, Thirty-Six Minutes and Counting

Still no progress.
Going to kill something now.

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...the tune, the notes -- she left no note.

May. 30th, 2006 | 12:57 pm

I've been stuck in a very Roger-ish attitude towards life lately.

Part of me can't wait for it to change.

Part of me actually prefers this to my usual attitude.

Two hours of playing around, halfanhour of trying to work.
0 pages, 0 paragraphs, 0 words, 1/4ofa breakdown

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I've got 25 bucks and a cracker, do you think that's enough to get us there?

May. 30th, 2006 | 11:09 am
location: SPC Downtown Center Comp Lab
mood: okaynot okay
music: N/A

I keep going between... very very okay and very very not okay. It's killing me. 

I want to be one or the other... I don't even care which it is. 

Plan for the day: 
-Halfhour or so of iconing/writing/whatever 
-Start paper 
-Don't break down in the comp lab

Notes for people:
 -Captain? Be good. Okay? Love you. 
-Bethyjei? We lost the phone again. Love you. 
-Nora? Please be in chat at some point today? Haven't gotten to talk to you enough lately. Love you.
-Angel? I love you I love you Iloveyou. 

...I need a mood theme. 

That's about all.

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We must admit there will be music despite everything.

May. 26th, 2006 | 07:54 pm

Since I found myself complaining to Angie earlier... My icons are no longer almost entirely depressing! Yaaaaaay!

Yay, pointlessness.

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...my sweetheart, my love, sent down from the sky...

May. 26th, 2006 | 11:54 am
mood: happyhappy
music: Just Some Guy- Anthony Rapp

This essay is gonna rock so much.

And... yeah.

Just to let people know: Right now, things are good.

So. Yeah. No worries.

(And? I absolutely adore this song.)

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Are you bleeding? Are you bruised, are you broken? And does it help you to know that so am I?

May. 25th, 2006 | 04:20 pm
mood: apatheticapathetic
music: I Am The One -- Feeling Electric, Act One


The Big Crisis isn't happening.

Plans are back on track. Sort of.

I really should turn off Feeling Electric, but I can't.

Angie? We have the phone... if I don't get a chance to talk to you today, can you call tonight? Please? I need to hear your voice.

Beth, we'll call you soonish, if you see this before we do. Just... not... tonight, okay? There's stuff I need to explain and I just... don't have the energy for explaining today.

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thank you for being that kind of girl

May. 18th, 2006 | 09:43 am
mood: restlessrestless
music: "Here In My Room" - Incubus - Addicted

I wonder if you know I'm thinking about you now. 

I wonder if you know that I think about you every time I hear that song. 

(Not just that song, either.) 

I love you.

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May. 18th, 2006 | 07:35 am

Requesting help for English Comp assignment: I have to bring in an "outrage" piece. An article or something that outrages me -- in it's opinion, how it's written, whatever.

Any ideas? (Anything anti-gayrights or anti-freedomofreligion/anti-wiccan/anti-pagan'll be a sure grab for me, but I suck at navigating the web news sources.)

--And I should eat. Someone remind me to eat before I leave home.

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It's gonna be fine, it's gonna be fine...

May. 18th, 2006 | 07:06 am
mood: exhaustedexhausted
music: "It's Gonna Be Good" (and reprise) (mentally)

So. Things are... actually rather sucky.

I'm in a list mood, so...

What's Been Going On Lately
-I failed English Comp.
+So I'm on probation on summer session.
+I somehow managed to pass Pilates with flying colors.
+Evie's birthday is on Wensday, and I get to spend the day with her.
+-I also might be going to her family birthday dinner, if they can change the day. I'm not sure whether or not that's really a good thing.
-I have been getting the strangest aches and pains.
+My 16th birthday is in less than two months. I'm going to be 16. Fina-fucking-ly.
-My 16th birthday is in less than two months. Holy shit, I'm going to be 16. That's a year closer to 18.
-All my plans are shifting -- as usual, watch this space (this being the LJ) for developments.
-+I think I just started relating to certain parts of Feeling Electric more than I would ever like to. ('So Anyway", "Growing Up Unstable", "Superboy and the Invisible Girl", "I Am The One (Reprise)", "I Am The One", "I've Been", "Let There Be Light (Reprise)"...)
-I really don't like having "It's Gonna Be Good" stuck in my head right now. Really don't.
-I'm thinking I might just ask for batteries for my birthday, so I have a constant supply for the headphones I will, come August, be wearing 24/7.
-My head hurts. As does my chest.
-I thought I was going to get to see a counselor but now there's no way in hell.
-The reason for many of these I Really Can't Mention Yet. I just can't bring myself to.

So that's really all I have to say.

I'm stuck doing homework without mIRC or AIM and I'm really bored -- spam me please?
Thank you.

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May. 18th, 2006 | 06:57 am
location: My mom's chair
mood: apatheticapathetic
music: Charmed (on TNT. Chris is a good distraction.)

Stolen rather lately from Luisa, but I've been barely LJ-checking for so long...

So tell me, am I crushable?

Comments are screened. If you've ever had a smidge of a crush on me, feel free to comment below. I won't mock you, and only you and I will ever know. Then post this in your own LJ and see who might be crushing on you.

Anonymous comments, of course, are shiny.

Real update about to happen. I think.

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